i remember a scene in the MV she is in her home-wear( underclothes) dancing in her bedroom and the lyrics went something like " I used to think about you...." don't think it was the chorus but it repeats often. it was a relatively pop like song. cannot remember much about the song just the vague recollection of the bedroom scene and that she repeats the above mentioned words.
Hey everyone! So I’ve avoided lingerie (and hated underwear/bra shopping) my whole life because of dysphoria... but now I’m feeling like I want some sexy stuff to wear like thongs or whatever. I literally know nothing and just need a starting point. Any recommendations? I’m non-binary and open to more gender neutral things but more on the masc side for sure! Just trying to avoid lace and other fem stuff
For example I was thinking of getting a tank top (if that’s what they’re called). Anything else y’all would recommend? I’m 17, don’t have much money.
For more context, here is what happened:
I lost my shit in the ER while on suicide watch and tried to run for it. The male security guards manhandled me as I resisted, without harming them. I solely tried to get away from them. The 5 or 6 of them strapped me down, using pain compliance to control me. I was left for about 5 mins in which I sat quietly and without thrashing.
Then, 4 or 5 nurses came, joined by at least one of the male security. They told me they wanted to sedate me. I pulled away from the needle they brought to my arm. Next thing I know, many hands were on me, trying to keep me still and try to pull my pants and panties down. I remember saying "No! stop!", "I'll be good!" and "fuck off!". One of the male security was twisting my arm then used some hold to press my head down. I was holding on my pants for dear life. My wrist tendons still has damage from that struggle. After the managed to pull down my pants and underwear -- exposing my pad too (I was on my period) -- he covered my face, restrained my head to the side as they gave me a sedative shot in my buttcheek.
I had already been sexually assaulted just a few months prior, and I felt like I was molested, humiliated ,and helpless. I felt like I was treated like a criminal. Yet I do understand some of their actions. But I still feel molested.
To add salt to injury the next day I had to take my shirt off to get some test regarding my heart. There was one female nurse. Yet I had no bra on (they ordered me upon arrival to the ER that I needed to take it off, because I could use it to hang/choke myself), if I resisted, they said I will be strapped down and get stripped from it anyways. I felt scared, and too scared to resist because of the events that had already took place the day before. I managed to talk myself out of admission to a psych ward. But I left the hospital feeling even worse than I did when I was taken there.
A month later after another attempted suicide I quietly went with the process and was admitted to a psych ward. Most of my distress was related to the feeling of being molested in the ER after already having been sexually assaulted. Imagine how there is no one there to stand up for you, help you, treat you humanely by people who had the legal right to strip you down. The only thing that got me through was the one nurse who soothingly stroked my ankle while I was pinned and stripped. But still, I felt worse and ended up in being transferred to a psych... keep reading on reddit ➡
My skin began falling off in chunks, and it was only then that I heard the lifeguards scream about an acid leak in the pool.
I don’t know why I’m think about this but still
hey guys, im starting to pack up for my first year of college, which is also the first year im gonna be fully out (while my family is pretty liberal, i live in a conservative town so i larped as a girl right up to graduation). it just kind of hit me now that i want to replace literally all of my undergarments, like underwear and socks and undershirts, because honestly id be more likely to burn my high school "girly" panties than put them on my body again once at school. thanks, dysphoria!
that being said, how many pairs of socks and underwear would yall reccomend i need to do a full replacement, especially for college (where laundry situations are unstable)? do any of yall have experience with this kind of wardrobe purge-and-replacement? should i stick to only boxer briefs because theyre all more pad-friendly, or is it worth it to invest in a couple pairs of regular boxers as well?
Mom, this is a little stupid, but I've never bought lingerie before and have no idea as to what would be the cutest stuff to get, and what would be the best size/how to fit and best place to get it.
Any tips? Please delete if this isn't allowed, I saw nothing in rules specifically against it but it's possible it could be too weird?
Shadowcast Hey group, nice job today!