Out of the 25 matches our team attempted we won 3. Out of the 22 games, 21 of which we went up against at least one flawless player.
The most used weapon by a very significant margin we went up against was the Felwinter's lie, a weapon that none of us have. We all used the seventh seraph CQC to attempt to compete but the 7m ohk on a good day could not at all compare. We had to play around close quarters because we knew in a shotgun duel we would never win.
Going up against players who are more experienced than us, more skilled than us with better weaponry than us seems hopeless. I can't see ever trying to attempt this game mode again.
I started paper trading and thought that what I was doing was working (looking back at my trades makes me cringe now), so I decided to put $1000 in my account and try it for real. I was on a steady downtrend for the first 2 months (while the general market is on a steady uptrend) and found my account balance to be below $850. I had to take a break at this point and had serious thoughts about giving up. I thought I wasn't cut out to be a trader; I must be a part of the 95% who fail. I decided to give it one more shot. I took a deep analytical dive into my past trades. I reevaluated my strategy, and found what was working and what wasn't. I slowly started seeing results. I clawed my way back to the original $1000 investment and today have officially hit the $100 profit mark.
If anyone is still reading this, I know what you're thinking: "Wow, 100 bucks, big deal," and you're right. It's not much. However, If an average guy like myself can battle back and grow his account 10% (+30% in two months), I strongly believe that anyone can; with enough dedication. I'd be happy to talk more about my journey to anyone who's interested or just starting out.
Edit: Thank you all for your comments! I’ve been reading almost every one! I knew a lot of people would say that based on my story, trading probably isn't for me, you have a very valid reason for saying so, and you could still be right. I've heard that everyone's trading journey is different, and I'm hoping my journey can continue for much longer. Instead of thinking about how I've only made 10% in 8 months in one of the strongest bull runs, I like to think that I've gone from $850 to $1100 (30% gain) while the SPY has gone up 8% in the past two months. I hope these type of gains can continue, but time will tell. Even if I can't continue these gains, I've really enjoyed the learning process and think that the knowledge I've gained is beneficial and worth the time to me.
Also, I am only trading with money I can afford to lose. I have the majority of my money in mutual funds that I don't plan on touching for a long time
As a PVE person I'm willing to lose 20 games in row to get 1 weapon drop rather than suffer and try to get 3 wins.
EDIT: I have some weapons unlocked.