Have you heard the famous quote by Dr. Maya Angelou ? When someone tells you who they are, believe them the first time. So here's what I think about when hearing that.
I have a memory of something random but profound my mother said to me and it speaks to how little value she had of me.
"No matter how I treat you, you will always be there for me."
When someone says that to you, they know what they are doing. They are more than aware of the harm they cause but they don't care. It's like a different crazy.
A lot of times, people will tell you exactly what they think of you and what they think your place is in their lives. They get too comfortable with you. They will treat you like garbage because they don't have the balls to do that to anyone else.
It's sad and infuriating that someone could think that way about me and think I don't have it in me to walk away. 15 years no contact and if she's still alive I hope she is replaying her quote in her head knowing her only child wants nothing to do with her. I hope the silence, isolation and misery is eating her alive.
My love for her was not a weakness. My care, concern, patience, respect and honor are not weaknesses. That I was able to keep those gifts under those circumstances was incredible because I could have turned out as ugly and violent as her.
Be careful how you treat your kids. We are human beings and we do have our limits. We love and care so hard. We put up with so much and our real crime is staying and seeing the good in people who don't have that in them.
Here's my quote :
"You can't always love the hate out of someone."
I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
If you're always trying to be normal, you will never know how amazing you can be.
Enjoy your day!
