Drug

Title is a bit of a doozy, but sums it up basically. My (27F) brother (32M) has struggled with addiction for a long portion of his life. It started when I was in middle school, and he would steal my parent's money, sell their things, and stole medication from some of our relatives. My parents would tell me to never trust my brother, and nearly everything valuable in our home was kept under lock and key. My parents were always trying to get him help, and after an intervention, they had a massive fight and he just left when I was in 10th grade.

When I was a college sophomore, he reached back out to me and we started having a really tentative relationship. He promised me he was getting better, that he was seeking help. He told me that he had been in rehab, but he couldn't afford it anymore and our parents weren't returning his calls. He even showed me an admittance form, or some other type of official-looking medical document, that "proved" he was in rehab. He asked me to loan him $3,000 for rehab, because he needed to pay tomorrow or they'd kick him out. I had been working my ass off and that money was meant to pay for this semester's tuition fe. He ghosted me afterwards. Obviously, it was a scam for drug money.

You probably think I'm stupid for believing him, but I really *wanted* to believe him. I was just an ignorant college kid back then, who really, really wanted her brother back.

After that incident, I learned to never trust him again, like my parents originally warned me. Last year, he reached out to my parents and I again. We haven't met in person, because of COVID, but we've had a couple Zooms and texts. It's just a really tentative, barely-there relationship. I think my parents are just scared of getting hurt again. He promised us he was actually clean this time and wanted to stay with us for an extended period of time to "prove it". He hasn't asked us for any money or anything, so I was beginning to believe he was actually clean.

Then he asked me for $3000 for a surgery for his dog, he sent me the vet documents as well. Honestly, I was so incredibly upset, my first reaction was that this was obviously a scam and he hadn't changed at all. He had talked about his dog/shown us pictures before, but I thought he had forged the vet documents. I didn't respond at all, even though he was begging me. I definitely had the money, and I've paid for the vet fees for my aunt's cat before -- I love animals. If I believed him, I probably would've paid.

But

In the US people seem to talk about doing the right amount, over here people do pill after pill, easily getting through 0.5g a night. At uni half the people ive met do md/ket. One guy i know pinged 7 nights in a row. I know another guy who done 1.5g of md in a night and burned a hole in his stomach. At a rave one time this don was gurning his chops off in the toilet while taking a shit with the door open, talking to everyone about some bollocks. Why are us brits so druggy?

Edit: Im talking more about party drugs

well, not necessarily "drug"scheme. we were a bunch of kids that sold pot in the bathrooms during lunch, that sort of thing. I was 14 at the time, it was 2nd semester and me and my best friend Isaac were in the bathroom when I was running my routine when the security guard that was way too nosy came barging in while we were looking at our goods.

Isaac wasn't involved but he had the weed in his hands when we got caught so he was the one punished. he got expelled and my parents were called, I never said anything and played it off like the weed was his. never saw Isaac after that, it still bends me the wrong way more than 3 years later. I just didn't know what to do, I was a dumb kid.

ILPT just a little tip for dealing use snap chat "or anything that dont give your physical number"for all of your transactions. If nobody has your telephone number it will be impossible for the cops/feds to wire tap your line. Make a completely fake profile with a burner phone that dont track back to you in any way and only use snap on that phone, but dont add any of your real friends only customers/suppliers and try to convince your supplier to talk only over snap aswell. Alot of fed/AG busts are heavy on wire tapping I've even see them charging people for selling just from hearing the call. Example: I call John and tell him I need 3 bags the feds had John's phone tapped a year later I get arrested for buying 3 bags and John gets arrested for selling me 3 bags. Now think about how many of those calls john had in a year while they were listening. Reminder: not gonna keep ya from getting caught but might minimize the charges and amount of people that get arrested.

Edit: I can already tell I'm gonna have alot of people negating what I shared so I want to say this they are still gonna get your messages if they really want but this is gonna make it way harder on them and minimize the amount of people arrested. Which limits your codefendants and limits the chances of people snitching on you.

There is more to a person than meets the eye. I am here to prove that I am still a great person despite my shortcomings. Ask me anything.

Edit: Holy cow. I didnt expect to wake up from my nap to see this blow up. Thank you to all the lovely non judgemental people out there <3 I'll start answering questions again in a moment :)

Edit 2: Its 1:50 AM EST where I am which means its late. I'm gonna head on over to bed, but feel free to continue asking questions! I'll get back on for a little awhile some time between 11am-1pm EST 🙃

Edit 3: FAQ that I've already answered:

•What's your drug of choice? Heroin and Xanax

•Did you start escorting to support your habit or did you start using to cope with escorting? The 2nd one

•Are you a street hooker? No, I am a high end escort that advertises my services on escort sites.

•How much do you charge? $140 USD for 15 minutes of my time, 180 for 30 minutes, and 250 for an hour

•How much money do you make? If I was to average it out, I make about 200 a day. That's 5600 a month plus the 2000 a month I make from online sex work like Onlyfans or selling content. So $7600 a month.

•How much do you spend? I spend $2000 a month just on hotel bookings. I spend another $1000 helping my 2 sisters pay rent, bills, and groceries. I don't have a car so I uber a lot. I have no kitchen so I order out a lot. I spend $200 a day on drugs... So as you can see, I am spending more than I am making.

•Where do you live if you're homeless? I an currently living in a motel that costs $2000 a month

By saying psychedelic drugs - I mean 5HT2A receptor agonists: LSD and psilocybin.

• These substances are orders of magnitude less harmful to the body than alcohol. In fact, in recreational doses they haven't ever been shown to possess have any poisonous qualities at all, meanwhile alcohol is found to be hepatotoxic and neurotoxic already at low recreational doses and is capable of destroying almost every single organ with chronic use.

• Physical addiction of psychedelics is usually thought to be impossible, as use of these drugs result in immediate increased tolerance because of downregulation of serotonin receptors. It is impossible to binge these drugs longer than 3 days even when possessing ridiculous quantities of them. In the other hand - alcohol is known for particularly nasty physical addiction which makes withdrawals physically dangerous and can result in epileptic seizures, delirious states and even death.

• Any real dependence of psychedelics is very rare. Even for an experienced user it always takes at least some courage to drop. Willingness to use drug is actually lower after consumption than before. Weekly use of psychedelics is said to be "heavy use", weekly use of alcohol among certain social groups is the norm and is not even seen as a cause of concern (even though it is). Alcohol often results in dependence, even in users who are vary of their alcohol consumption - up to 1/5 of all people who have tried alcohol become dependant on it one time or another.

• Current scientific evidence show that use of psychedelics is less harmful psychologically than consumption of alcohol, as consumption of psychedelics does not seem to increase prevelance of any mental illness in studies which control for other factors. Alcohol equivalent of "bad-trip" causes just as bad outcomes, just because it doesn't seem as unpleasant to the user itself doesn't mean it is less bad.

• Negative side-effects of psychedelics for the most part have equally negative side-effects in alcohol itself. Drug-induced psychosis has been found to also be induced by alcohol. For example - alcohol at high doses is capable on causing dangerous, violent and delirious states which in level of intoxication mimic or are even worse than comparable states induced by high doses of psychedelics. Violence under the influence of LSD is very rare but under the influence of alcohol it is relatively common.

Edit:

My view did not get changed per se but still it made me look at the issue in a

Just like a car, constantly give your body the best fuel (healthy food, supplements, and healthy drinks like tea), constantly tune it up (aka EXERCISE, working out will go a long way in ensuring your body doesn’t break down), make sure it gets ample rest (sleep is one of the most important things one has to nail down if one is consuming heavy drugs, especially stims. Not sleeping lowers immune system, drugs won’t feel nowhere near as good, and it also likely one of the main reasons why so many of us druggies age rapidly), and lastly, find meaning outside of drugs because there is a lot more to life than simply getting high, even if it might not appear as such. Take it from me, keeping your car in good condition will give it longer legs. Peace ✌🏾

A good start