As the title says I want a game that will put me anywhere between tearing up and bawling my eyes out.
Idk why but I've alwase been a fan of sad stuff, sad movies, sad books, and more recently, sad games.
I finished cyberpunk about a week ago and (EXTREMELY MINOR SPOILER FOR ONE OF THE ENDINGS) the ending I got made me cry like a baby and I realized for some reason I want more of that.
Games I already have on my list are: spirit farer (the trailer alone made me tear up), a night in the woods, and I'm currently playing FF7/FF7R (I doubt FF7 will make me cry though as I already know THAT characters fate)
I've already played the last of us 1/2
Anything on ps4/switch works.
(Or if you never cried watching anime, name at least one that made you feel a lump in your throat)
So it's new years eve, everyone's out partying, my boyfriend died last week and im sitting alone at home, drinking wine and i have this big urge to finally let it all out and cry so please give me something i can cry to. and happy new year to everyone, 2020 was really bad for everyone, let's make 2021 amazing :)
I post this knowing in todays world I may be seen as 'less of a man' for some reason, even though I think it's quite the opposite. Today I put my big boy pants on, left my ego at the door and saw a therapist. Then made him cry.
I've been quite down lately, I hate it so professional help seemed like a good step to take. I'm a fairly successful man who focused more on career than women my whole life. Now that i'm ready for the next step of a family of my own, I have been met with only failure for years. This single failure has more weight than all of my accomplishments can seem to carry. Yes I am happy with myself and no i don't 'need' anyone, though I think those terms get twisted by ego by the masses.
Anyways, I scheduled an appointment and go see the DR. First impression he seemed like a real stand up guy, down to earth, and quite handsome (I need some grey in my beard now, very jealous). He definetly came off as a real manly man too, which may sound odd but it's not what I pictured in my head before I met him. I explained my plights and he quietly listened and probed for more information.
It wasn't until I started explaining that though successful, my feelings of failure are due to not being able to find a worthwhile relationship and I feared never having the option of a family or kids of my own. At that moment I noticed a slight twitch from this large muscular doctor and a small tear form in his eye. He immediately wiped it away and appologized. He quietly explained that he was 45 years old and had made alot of sacrifices to get his degree and start a practice. Of these sacrifices, getting married and starting a family never took priority until it was too late. (So if anyone is looking to meet an awesome guy other than myself XD)
He said most men that focus on a career often suffer from depression and loneliness once the dust settles, and on top of that 'childless men' suffer the most. Of course he assured me to keep at it and the door isn't closed for me yet as i'm only 30, but he acknowledged this is about the time he started having the same feelings as he watched all of his friends start their families. My take away was I still have time to hopefully meet my person, but happily-ever-after is never guaranteed and sometimes great men fall by the wayside. I'll keep building my empire and maybe things will work out.
Do any other men 30-50 echo these feelings?
That's the story of the time a manly therapist was vulnerable with me and really validated... keep reading on reddit ➡
TLDR: "Cry it out" is a technique promoted to teach children how to sleep in their own bed, in their own room. It's unnatural and bad for a few reasons:
When you combine this with Dr. Tom Boyce's work on intrinsic differences in sensitivity between children, the inevitable result is that some people are going to be harmed far more than others, often scarred for life.
When you look at how "primitive" people live, infants and toddlers are rarely out of arms reach from parents. This gives them the baseline security and safety they need to survive in the wild.
If you are a parent, consider cosleeping (what humans did for forever) or at least keeping a bed/cradle in your room. Update: yes, cosleeping can be dangerous, that's why there are a a number of products that can make it safer and more sustainable. This includes beside-the-bed basinets as well as in-bed cosleepers.
If you were a victim of this (as most of us were), this is perhaps the most difficult trauma to address. Before your brain and body were even fully functional, you were conditioned to ignore your needs. You were left to be profoundly lonely, to the point of absolute terror. I have not yet figured out how to get over it, but I have at least gotten in touch with the pervasive, deep, underlying sense of loneliness and abandonment. It's particularly bad when I'm trying to sleep (go figure!). Here are some things I've found that help:
Not really tucking him in, but more of a few minutes of quiet father-son time.
After he was done with his shower, he told me he didn't want me to say goodnight in his room anymore.
I asked him why and he said "dad I'm a 10yo kid."
My first response was going to be "so?" But instead I said "okay."
I was fine with his not wanting to hold hands or walk besides me or meeting him outside his class, but this actually broke my heart. I love this kid so much. I won't lie. I went to bed and cried like bitch.
Update: Thanks for your comments. I have been busy and am shocked this got so many upvotes. I have a couple of theories why he doesn't want me to tuck him in at night. At least he'll still go in my bed to watch Youtube videos or play video games and still thinks my dad jokes are funny.
(Edited/Added for more clarity: I am immunocompromised and have a heart condition.) After being kinda sick 3 days, today I wake up with a bad sinus infection & call my PCP's messaging service around 9am. I'm told to expect a call within the hour. 2 hrs later I called back to check in and they said I'd hear back from the doc in another hour. I finally get a call back from the doc around 12 (edit/add: I have a 102.4 fever at that point). He agrees I have a sinus infection, and says he'll call in an antibiotic by 2pm at the latest. I told him sounds good, my pharmacy closes at 5, thanked him, and hung up. I eventually call the pharmacy to check if the got my script, and they hadn't by 3:30. 4pm, I call the pharmacy; nothing yet & they tell me to call the doc again since they stop processing 15 mins before close. I call the service back; was told the doc would get back to me immediately.
4:30, and I'm doing a lot worse, and am now legit worried about getting through night without treatment if I don't get this antibiotic. At 4:32 I call the service back. I told them that I understand that the doc is probably busy dealing with people who are sicker than me; but I also was frustrated that it was 7+ hrs after my first contact & that I needed help. The guy was disturbed that nothing had happened yet & marked my message as urgent to ensure I got help before my pharmacy closed.
5 minutes later I get a call from the on-call doc & he is PISSED. He starts yelling that I'm nuisance, and was abusing the service. He yelled he was dealing with Covid patients at the hospital all day (which I had no clue about), that I should have known better than to bother him. He said that he "called in my script 30 mins ago," & that I was taking time away from Covid patients. He made me feel like a piece of trash for not being sick enough to be worth his time, and the message was loud & clear that my health was not worth bothering him about. I felt horrible & was trying so hard not to cry. I told him that I was sorry, and if he listened to the last recorded call with the service he would even hear me say, "I don't want to bother the doc, but I also don't want to have to go to the ER." (There's no urgent care or clinic by me, so my only choices were PCP or ER.) I said I understood he was dealing with patients that were worse than me but that I still needed his help before the pharmacy closed & that nothing had been called in as of 4:30.
Then his... keep reading on reddit ➡
We were sold a mix between Far Cry and GTA 5 and Skyrim and Deux Ex. We were promised smart AI and customizations and buying property and exploration and got none of that stuff. But we DID get ALL the stuff in a Far Cry game.
-Good main story where you play the part of the Protagonist, with no real choices in how things play out. You are Jason Brody, or in this case, V, an already established personality you didn't build.
-Interesting, well-written characters with good dialogue. I think CDPR's writing is better than Ubisoft's, but it's close enough, I think.
-Fun side quests that largely involve killing a camp of enemies. Sometimes you get to rescue someone!
-You cannot change the world around you in any way outside of the main quest. There are no factions to develop relationships with, killing 500 people doesn't really affect anything.
-You spend your entire time doing side quests and progressing the main plot, then you're done. No reason to go back, really.
That's Cyberpunk. We were sold a Next-Gen RPG with ALL the cool stuff in games we've played before, from many genres, and all they could manage to get done before release was a really good Far Cry game.
It's clear they INTENDED to have all these neat features in their game, and even started working on many, if not ALL of them. But at some point the decision was made to cut them and just ship the game.
Cyberpunk is a blast to play, for sure. I love driving around town, murdering Maelstrom thugs and having Johnny show up sometimes to be snarky.
But it's not what we were promised. And that sucks.
The graphics are mind-blowingly beautiful and immersive. Just don't look too close at all the stuff you CAN'T do.