I'm taking A's this year, I like what I'm studying and I know what I want to do when I graduate and apply for university. I know where I want to go and I've already mapped out my ideal future if things go right (ie pandemic doesn't take 5 years to pass). my friends are awesome and I have a hobby I really enjoy. i recently got rejected on valentines day but I'm over him already. but lately it feels like my life's missing some colours and it makes me feel a sense of (almost) emptiness and nothing excites me anymore. I don't understand why I feel like this. I live comfortably, I have friends who are there for me every step of the way, and I have teachers who are willing to help and listen to my issues.
sometimes I wonder if its the lack of having a crush or the lack of a similar feeling to liking someone that makes me feel like this. I know I should focus on studying and spite is a great motivator but liking someone adds that spark in life. I know it's not meant to complete me but without that kind of feeling, everything feels so boring. life is legitimately so boring now and I don't even feel motivated to do anything.
has anyone felt like this before?
edit: thanks for the comments and awards guys!!
I’ve not (yet) come across anyone talking about this masterpiece here yet. Are there others who have read it? It was my first Murakami and I loved it so much, such a wonderful work. It has stayed with me. Planning to re read it this month, after almost 6 years. Have you read it? Would love to know your thoughts.
What can be the reason? Since last March, I started to get uglier and uglier. What supplements would you recommend?
It just doesn't exist whenever I go on it. I wanna know if I'm unlucky or it's normal. Lol
The game was about exploring these colourless liminal spaces, and the name was something that sounded french. The name had an "Ette" in it (I think??? not sure). It was dark, and a bit horror-ish.
I was in a relationship with a "person" (will call her P here) of same sex for 4 years. P got married and started ghosting me. After a while, P started blaming me for being in a sexual relationship and that I committed a great sin. I am not religious. P was. I loved P dearly and all the blames, ghosting, and harsh texts pushed me to a point where I lived in denial of my sexuality for a decade. Fast forward to the current day, I am still attracted to same sex (I am bi!). However, I am still not confident enough to pursue it. My family is in denial of my sexuality. My mother (I am really close to her) has asked me to date anyone I want but to settle down (as in marriage) with only a person of opposite sex. I don't want to end my relationship with my mother (I am too close to her).
Each time I feel attracted to someone of the same sex, I feel guilty. I feel like I am betraying my mother and P. I have reached a point where I can't date anyone... Over the years, I have limited myself in every possible (socially, sexually, professionally, personally). I am socially awkward and introvert. Have also been struggling with Anxiety and Complex PTSD for a few years now. I feel like my life has no meaning whatsoever... I am utterly exhausted and feel empty inside.
SPOILER ALERT FOR THOSE WHO HAVEN'T READ.
Now that I have put that out, I really wanted to talk to someone about the book. It's 12 am here, a chilly night and I finished one more book by Murakami. I really really liked or I can even say loved Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years Of Pilgrimage. I have always loved Murakami. I have felt myself flowing away into his strange world and almost poetic words.
I am hoping people who have read this book are reading this. I just wanted to say it out loud, I really hope Tsukuru and Sara end up together. Like this is one character I really feel for. I really want him to win. Like seriously. I really want him to receive what he feels and is ready to give.
That's it, I just wanted to say that.
Thank you for reading!
I've been thinking about this and I was wondering what the consensus on this was, since all three of them are unique not just from each other, but even on their own, and I could see any of them being considered the best. So in your opinion, which is the best colourless tome unit?
>T: Add C
>3, T, Pay life equal to the number of colors in your commanders' color identity: Draw a card.
Very comparable to [[Bonder's Enclave]] as a easy way to get some slow card advantage over the course of the game. Seems pretty decent!
How would people feel about a colorless only set. As in every single card in it would be colorless. It would have to be a very small set like Mirage that only had 110 cards. There are only 8 legal Truly colorless legendary Generals at the moment. Obviously there would be reprints of cards that really need them. (Amulet of Vigor, Wayfarer's bauble) But just a set in general that adds more colorless legendary creatures and colorless cards in general. I know it's probably a balancing nightmare. And impossible for wizards to not make ridiculously pushed cards. Just wanna know what people would like to see in such a set.